aRt aTtACk::

I just found out puisi yang aku tulis nih...Aku tulis on tissue paper masa 2nd year and aku takut aku akan hilang benda nih, so I put it here..Dengan harapan it will be here forever...hahahaha....

I don't know if this poem is good or not but it came sincerely from me at that time... so here goes:

YANG UNIVERSAL

Hati

Tidak dapat menipu

Mana bisa membisu

Cinta yang hadir ini

Bukan dalam keterpaksaan

Situasi memangkin rasa

Jiwa

Tidak mudah dicantas

Agak sukar menggalas

Beban gelojak asmara

Mungkin benar pendita lama

Dalam jiwa ada cinta

Tak terbendung dek masa

Cinta

Saat hadir membenam kewarasan

Panah arjuna memasung penilaian

Membukit saujana

Indah, Nikmat

Sedetik pula soal bertaut

Wajarkah?Sekarangkah?Diakah?

Kecamuk

Perlukah aku teruskan

Bagaimana?Mengapa?

Pena biru mungkin menemani

Warkah ungu mungkin melayari

Tiada siapa perlu tahu

Tiada siapa perlu malu

Andai tempoh itu

Tiba dan berdetik

Menjulang rasa

Rebah dan sedih pasti ada

Andai pelangi itu tidak muncul menjelma

Cuma satu

Yakin...Pasti..

Engkau layak mengalaminya

Ia universal....

ThE eNd?

After Spending 5 years in UTP, I managed to make a grand departure of myself by involving in 2 out-of-campus activities in 2 different events with 2 great bunch of people. The first was dancing and singing in KL Convention Center and the latter would be gamelan in Sheraton, Subang.




The First:

Dancing for the last time was not easy for me….From the beginning (before the event) I felt a solemn echo in my heart. I know this would be the last time for me to hang out with these young talented dancers and dancing has been the ‘thing’ for me for the past 5 years. Thus, it is not an easy get-over-it situation.

As for singing, well I kinda attached to these Star Search people….The musicians, the other finalists….I know for sure this won’t be the last time I sing, but somehow it is the last time for me to hang out with them. I barely know them and started to enjoy their companion but it won’t last long here I guess…Hopefully the friendship remains till eternity

That nite eventhough I felt the adrenaline rush and enjoyment, my mind keep racing bout the next day. Thought of leaving everyone just made you unfocused at a time…..But I know the leaving part is for good…. Having a contagious laugh within the teams is great and I miss it now…I miss them all….hahahahaha It looks like the guests and audiences enjoying themselves with the food, the band, singers and dancers.We did a great job that nite~

That nite..some of us went out for the last time...Jalan2 from the hotel to a mamak stall near KLCC..great time with everyone...Initially the group was quite small la....Then sampai mamak jumpa another grup budak2 dancer pompuan junior...hahah...so apa lagi...heboh la...After having late supper(nih yang best kalo gi hotel2 buat show..makan tak berenti), we decided to jalan2 some more....Gabung 2 grups..fuhh....Kalo org naik kereta and saw us that nite merayau2 tepi jalan..sure they thought budak2 kutu rayau malam2...hahahaha...bising nak mampus....Singgah at McD and jalan some more sampai pusing balik to hotel....Lalu thru Taman KLCC tuh yang gelap nak mampus..tapi since sgt ramai grup kitorg nih...so tak der la takut sgt..hihihi...Pictures are easily captured time nih...hahaha....Balik with a VERY beautiful memories and I guess semua tido dlm senyum....hihihi....

As for me, I thot balik2 bole tido...So igt nak kacau si Dharma first before sleep, call his room, last2 die force me to go out with him dengan Lula sumer...Ish..'kalo tak pergi, siap ko!'..Macam tu la lebey kurang bunyi ugutan die...hahaha..Since this will be the last time hanging around with him and Lula, so what the heck...Ngantuk2 tuh pun pegi jugak la...Tunggu kat lobby hotel and meet up with him and Lula...and then joined by Ina, Ompeng and Fira....So kitorg naik la kereta si Dharma nih...Igtkn nak pegi mana...die ckp die lapar and we(actually aku tak included) makan2 kat gerai steamboat tepi jalan....Dah kenyang makan kat mamak so there's no way I could eat some more...So I just watched them melantak all they want...Looks delicious, trust me...hihihi...Habis jer makan, straight went back to hotel..Hampeh tul si Dharma nih....Cukup asal die kenyang....Buat penat aku jer ikut...hahah..But anyway it was a great hang-out moment....

Esok pagi melantak secara free lagi kat restoran hotel nih....Breakfast....It's like a feast man~~ My god..Banyak giler choice of food for breakfast..Sumer aku rasa...wahahaha...Even the koko crunch with milk pun aku bedal..hihihi....Then Fizi said goodbye first becoz he need to drive back to Terengganu...So sedey that time....After that everyone got back to their room to pack up sebab check out at 12 p.m....When it's time to go, and everyone gathered at the hotel lobby...It was preety much sad with glooomy air everywhere....I dont know 'bout others but that's what I felt that time....I purposedly try to busy myself by collecting all the clothes and everything just to avoid hanging out with them...I dont want to talk or say too much because I know I'll cry...So time tu bole control lagi..Just say simple goodbye and just a few people went back to UTP..mostly sumer blah ikut haluan masing2....Bas gerak jer....aku dah tersedu-sedan dalam bas...hahaha...Tak malu nak cerita but it was so sad and it's still is....Sedey sgt nak tinggalkan everyone..Knowing that life wont be the same anymore ....Wish them all the best in everything and hope to meet them again one day.....Miss everyone so much~~

Beautiful Malaysians....hihihihi

Izzi, Me and Mekot with Twin Towers as the background(credit to Mekot for the pic)

The hotel (Saja amik gambar jauh2....The focus is on the hotel...Cantik giler bilik die)

Gambar2 lain nanti kalau I got hold on every single pics, I post lagi...Nih jer gambar2 yang aku sempat amik dr Mekot...Terlupa nak amik....

The Second:

Aku tau ramai yang malas kalau membaca panjang2 kan?So since I have all the pics of this event, it's better I post gambar jer kan?huhuhu..The event? PETRONAS Management Forum kat Sheraton, Subang..Kitorang main gamelan...

Sebelah kanan aku tuh ada peti aiskrim..Tu jer la yang kitorg bedal kalo tak der kerja...nak tunggu rehearsal, makan aiskrim dulu..Aduh..enaknya aiskrim......Buah2 tuh bukan untuk display ok?Aku makan berapa biji entah, aku pun tak igt...wahahaah

The Players (pemain gamelan) after the show~~ Makanan die fullamak~~Gempak Beb! Ada Japanese, Italian, Malaysian food...Masyuk~~

Breakfast on the next day (Perasaan seperti British Countryside...wahahahaha)...Makanan die..Fuhh~~~Lazat....Breakfast mcm makan untuk 3 tahun~~

Lepak2 selepas kekenyangan melantak breakfast~~Suma muka 'high' sebab kenyang~~

Nak mandi kat swimming pool die, tapi tak bawak short and bikini la pulak..huhuhu Amik gambar pun jadi la kan?

Saja nak popularkan diri sendiri di blog sendiri....Since gambar ni cantik, model die pun handsome....hahahahah..so apa lagi...

Aku dan rumate hotelku di Christmas Tree yang indah...Uzair nama die...I mean nama rumate aku..bukan nama pokok krismas tuh...huhuhu....

The memories remain guys....Love and miss everyone..Hope we can play gamelan together again one day...Nazmi and Paan were not in this pic..dieorg balik awal...

Malam lepas show tuh..aku ajak budak2 nih buat dajal..hahaha...ronda2 malam2 kat kedai2 depan Sheraton..Tapi sekejap jer la..kesian dieorg nih...ramai yang tak biasa kot...huhuhu....But it was a nice night-out for everyone...Siap beli aiskrim (again!) kat 7-Eleven and duduk makan tepi jalan...hahahahah..Thanx guys for the lovely moment....

Balik UTP pun dlm suasana sedey jugak....'sigh'....Always sad end....I'm gonna miss u guys a lot...

p/s:Nih mayb post terakhir aku for a while kot...Sebab lepas nih nak update payah sket..dah jadi penganggur bertauliah kena la carik CC kot nk update...Kalo umah kawan tempat aku stay nih ada internet and dengan jasa baik dieorg, bole la nak update seminggu sekali ke kan?huhu...I'll be missing each and everyone I know in UTP so much...Thanx for the ups and downs..Thanx for everything...I'm embarking on a new chapter of my life now and hope to meet u guys again one day...Thanx alot guys~~

SiApA aKu?

Tak sangka aku nih hensem jugak kan?Hahahahahah

a LiSt oF tRiBuTeS

Jalan ini sudah hujung

Jalan ini sudah kosong

Hati ini sudah kacau

Hati ini sudah bilau

Di belakang aku

Susuk-susuk manusia

Akan aku tinggalkan

Akan aku lambai

Sudah tiba masa kawan

Kita kejar haluan berbeza

Aku ke sini, engkau ke situ

Moga satu hari berdamping semula

Kerana dua jalan pasti ketemu

The Dancers

Guys: Fizi, Asnan, Mekot,Kapten,Farhad,Izzi, Shahrin,Kamil,Arif, Irsyad, Mat Zam, Keane, Zaid

Gals: Haha, Anis, Leanne, Ompeng, Ina, Nita,Puvi,Oyen,Anis Jr, Izza, SY, Ain, Paee, Ila, Mar, Adline, Zarith,Farah, Amoi

I'm gonna mizz u guys like crazy....I dont know what I'll do now that dancing is officially out of my personal lilfe...I miss all the stupid jokes you guys did, I miss the sounds of everyone laughters, I miss being with all of you....I miss all of you...

The Theater People

Anwar, Kobar,Usop, Pot, Lutfi, Nuar, Khairil, Pacel, Fuad, Ben

I'm gonna miss you guys so much too....It's been a bless to be able to work with such a talented young people...I know now, not everyone is born with talent, and you guys are some of the special ones...Luv you all bro~~

The Band/The Star Search

Afiq, Duck, Dzq, Eena, Lula, Dharma, Elvina, Oliver, Sharifah, Charles, committee members

It's been a wonderful experince to share the stage with you guys...Such a talented bunch of people...Afiq-Thanx for the precious time sharing your thots on music, Dzq-ur patience on our constantly changing desire to sing good tunes, Duck-funny guy huh?, Lula-u nmpk lagi matured dr aku..hahah...great beats..., Eena-what more can a guy ask from a very talented young woman?U go girl~~ to the finalists-love being around you guys..feel like brothers and sisters and all of you are very talented...hope to see everyone on stage soon...hihihi..miss the time

The Gamelan

Eventhough I merely know all of you, but everyone is so nice and kind and I'm the only one yg jadi perosak ek?hahahah...nice to know each and everyone of you

The Mentors

En. Ahmad, Dr Shark, Mr Rahmat, En Mat, Cikgu Zaidin, En Hamid, lecturers

Thanx for all the knowledge and trust...You guys thot me to be who I am today~~

The Friends

Konoha(Juniors, Ting, Kobar, Afiq,Aizad, Kapten, Mekot, Pacel, Aznar, Said), The Kertus(Lin, Zana, Fiza, Riana, Dila), Fasya, Ayend, Etty, Jieha, Carbon-Copy, Turboprop, Jan2002...

Thanx for all the insight, friendship thorugh ups and downs, the jokes, the love, sweat.....I really miss you guys now....So Much......take care of yourself and hope to see everyone soon....

Love is farewell

Love is goodbye

Love is letting go

Love is forever

I'll see you guys when the time comes.....

CINTA @ LOVE ACTUALLY

How do you define CINTA? Is it the relationship which bond two or more human beings?Or is it more than that?First time tengok trailer cerita nih kat TV dulu, hati mcm melonjak2 nak pegi tgk..At that point of time, you could not know the exact story line la kan?So my utimate drive was the beautiful scene the television gave me...Biler tgk trailer die..fuh...cantik gak sinematografi die...Honestly speaking(writing), I dont crave too much on watching Malay movies..Yeah..go on, blame me with the usual statement:'Macam mana filem melayu nak maju kalau orang nya sendiri tak nak pergi sokong'..I dont care..What I know, I dont want to waste my money on junk and stupid malay movies(yang perasan ala2 Hindi, kena nyanyi2 kat padang and pantai)..Might as well spend that money to something else like magazines, food...If the movie good, then it's good..If it's not, then it's not..Simple as that...And at this point of time, I know which Director(s) in Malaysia can give me good(great) movies!

Back to CINTA, I watched it with my friends after a week filem nih being screened..Quite busy with lotsa things, so nak cari masa utk watch it is quite hard..So when the right time came, we just went to the cinema and enjoy it.....Just imagine, dah seminggu kat pawagam, obviously dah ramai my friends watched it and everyone would come up and say 'Serious, pegi la tgk..tak rugi!'..So the drive and semangat nak pegi tgk tuh makin berkobar2...

Cerita filem nih simple I guess(for me), sebab die mengupas certain ways on how LOVE can exist around us..The simple dialog, everday used dialog memudahkan kita faham jalan cerita die..Eventhough there are 5 different stories in this film, tapi they are connected to each other in a way...Yup, you can't run from the other comment that said this film is more or less using the same premise as Love Actually(I dont know if a lot of us familiar with this movie but I can assure you it was a great movie..seriously)..Tapi CINTA lain sket I guess..Sadness is more obvoius compare to Love Actually..Die mcm a bit close to us I guess sebab it's Malaysian movie..Hahahah Pernah tgk one talkshow and they invite these CINTA's actors and one of them said that, the film is good because when you watch it, you will say something to yourself like 'Ni pernah jadi kat aku nih'..So mcm tu la perasaan aku while watching it..tak la sumer 5 stories tuh berkaitan dgn aku tapi in a way, pernah experience and pernah tgk la that happens...

My personal fav story inside CINTA would be between Dyan and adik die...It's so touching and I cried softly on my seat..Tak sedar pun keluar air mata..Especially time Dyan read out the poem(or nasihat) to her brother...The lines were superb..Sound childish but very meaningful...I think siblings relationships is way stronger compare to others(my personal opinion)..Masakan org dulu2 bole come out with peribahasa 'Air dicincang takkan putus'...I just feel the burden and guilt on Dyan's shoulder...Fuhh...This is the first time I cry watching Malay movie..seriously...Thanx CINTA....hahahhah

Apart from that, I think all the actors did great job...Selama nih tak pernah suka si Fasya Sandha, but this time around I salute her for her great performance in CINTA...Sebelum nih tgk die belakon mcam kayu and streotype jer...tapi dlm nih, she did well..And Datuk Rahim Razali and Pn Fatimah tak payah cakap la kan?Mmg otai lakonan....Cuma frust jugak dgn lakonan Rita Rudaini..Bukan sebab lakonan die hampeh, but her scene ciput giler...lines or dialog die bole kira dgn jari...I mean, her story with her husband is one of the 5 main stories tapi tak nampak her presence dlm cerita tuh..Tapi lakonan die at those scenes mmg nice la...I always love her acting skills..

And I have to give credit to the cinematography..I think it's awesome..Tak pernah nmpk KL secantik tuh..Walaupun ada scene rumah buruk kat kampung2(dekat2 komuter railways), tapi the camera angle is awesome....Mcm most of time angle camera die is for tv commercial...Tabik spring....and the timing is always right...Time bila komuter nak lalu, LRT nak lalu..kereta nak lalu..nicely done...and you know what?I watched Love Actually, i think CINTA's cinematography is way better...

All in all, I think the film do justice and prove that Malay movie can also be good and great like Yasmin's films..Hope to see more of this type(this great) films in the future....

p/s:This is all my personal views...Kalau ada rasa tak puas hati,lumrah la tuh...Rambut kita sama2 hitam(perang,kunig,merah) atau sama2 ada kutikel rambut, tapi taste and perasaan kita lain2...Jumpa lagi~~

iT hUrTs

Nothing Lasts Forever

Though We Want It To

The Road Ahead

Holds Different Dreams

For Me And You

Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart

Is The Only Way For Destiny

Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts

Is The Only Way Now For You And Me

Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say

I Miss Your Love In Every Way

So Say Goodbye

But Don't You Cry Because True Love Never Dies

The lyrics up there pretty much sum up what I feel rite now. Saying goodbye is what we do everyday, but to say this 'goodbye' word after a while could be hard just for everyone...

5 years spending your time with friends and making up habits(good and bad) totally consume you..Biler dah habis belaja sume, it seems unreal that you wouldn't be able to do that anymore in the near future..Right now I'm thinking: "What would life be without running through your timetable for the next class, what would it feel not able to chit chat with your friends during lecture, what would life be without DC++, movies, musics, gossips, time-out in Ipoh"....Fuhhh... Too many things yang dah biasa buat and now you have to start all over again planning a new lifestyle...

We did it once after SPM...Adjusting a new phase of our life as university student...But this time around the aura is just different..You are no longer student, whatever you do next will have a big consequence to your future career and so on...Bukan la maksud nya time dulu you dont think about this, but the responsibility is bigger..You put your life at stake...Student life is pretty much still dependable, whether on your parents, lecturers, sponsor..Tapi this time around, you decide your own way...You nak kerja and gain money, pangkat..It's all in your hands..Rasa sgt berat..Don't know if I'm ready for that, but have to face it, sooner or later...

I'm gonna miss student's life badly..Serious s**t!..huhuh...Miss all the people surrounding me for the past 5 years, miss all the memories...I'm really sad rite now...Feel so lonely...Sekarang nih suma org dah balik and God knows what they are doing rite now...hihihi...I'm still here, mumbling, flashing all the past memories in my head...If only I could turn back the time, and stay around with my friends for a while..just enough time to say I love and appreciate them so much...But life must go on I guess...you can't be on a spot and not going anywhere..The least you can do is moving on but cling to the memoirs of your journey..It will help you in the future(that's what I believe)...

To all my friends out there, I LOVE and gonna MISS each and everyone of you so much..Thanks for the friendship, advises,love, care, protection,jokes and many more...You guys make me the way I am today, bubbly, fresh, and motivated person...There's nothing in this world that I would have replace it with your friendship...Hope to see you guys soon and god bless all of you.....